Saturday, April 23, 2005

PAIN

To heal I need you
to feel you
to touch you
in your rawness
as you tear me apart
till the tears flow....

Your beauty lies in
that you remain hidden
unrevealed
closeted
behind all the layers
so that no one else can
have a glimpse of you but me...

But only when
I can venture in there
into that empty space you occupy
where I can savor your feel
your fullness
and absorb you
and also release you bit by bit
day after day....

You are'nt my friend
nor are you my enemy
just my teacher
teaching me lessons
through challenges
that i have ignored so far...

I go to bed each night
feeling I have conquered you
just that bit
that little bit
and just when I get
a glimpse of the light ahead..

I also see the shadows..

27 comments:

_Soulless_ said...

Dear Jyotsna, I love this poem... I truly, verbosity-aside, really, really do...

absorb you
and also release you bit by bit
day after day....


just when I get
a glimpse of the light ahead..

I also see the shadows..


Heartrending and comforting in a single exhale. 'Comforting' in the sense that, I stand, weak-kneed, to mirror the pain...

Pragya said...

Loved this poem Jyo! It is so heart-wrenching! Would love to see it posted elsewhere as well!

reNUka said...
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reNUka said...

-- go to bed each night
feeling I have conquered you
just that bit
that little bit
and just when I get
a glimpse of the light ahead..

I also see the shadows.. --

Jyo... well expressed! i suppose thats the reality with growing up children!!! i dont know... not arrived there as yet, but seems like it would be true.

mermaid said...

"I go to bed each night
feeling I have conquered you
just that bit
that little bit
and just when I get
a glimpse of the light ahead..

I also see the shadows.."

This was such an astute way of describing the self within the self, Jyotsna. Constant revisions, changing what doesn't work, keeping what does, accepting the light and shadows...

Pincushion said...

Which line do I point to? Which should I say is the most poignant of all? I am at a loss to say...
Its so filled with meaning and depth; truly you have captured the 'hidden'space of a woman so beautifully...!!
Thank you for this :)

gulnaz said...

its an ode to pain. beautifully expressed. thanks.

stan laurel said...

this person sounds beautiful. I can relate to needing to heal by feel and touch. This portrait is well written with tons of wonderful imagery.

Lone Warrior said...

Wow! Great poem..I became your instant fan after reading that. Going to check out the rest of your blogs..

perspective said...

beautiful jyotsna... its lovely...
here's what i wrote under the same title...

PAIN

Some strange pain shadows over me
Making me feel,
What I don’t want to feel
Making me do
What I don’t want to do
It’s a pain of joy
It’s a pain of sorrow
A pain that you might call ecstasy
A pain you may name guilt

The world denying me
My heart profoundly sure
Making me feel
What I don’t want to feel
Making me do
What I don’t want to do

A feeling ever so pure!!

Lone Warrior said...

Lotsa poets out here..I have a page in my home page for poems, check it out

http://backbenchrockers.tripod.com/id16.html

gulnaz said...

wondering why you havent posted lately

mermaid said...
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mermaid said...

Where did you go? It's dark out here.

Jyotsna said...

Hi,I'm away for a short break of sorts..my daughters medical issues and visiting my parents in chennai--cant acces the mail here!was lovely to hear from you!will post once am back..
tx for all your comments.means a lot!
mermaid-hope you are doing well!
Gulnaz-am waiting to get back to mumbai soon:))

reNUka said...

in chennai - Jyo - cmon... u cud atleast gimme a call me...

mermaid said...

I hope your daughter is Ok. Let me know if I can say a prayer. I'll say it anyway.

Ritesh said...

Beautiful,

Makes me think how important my life is. Thank you

Shubhodeep said...

hi...beautiful poetry and writings here...do you mind if i link your
blog...
visit my blog at http://shubhodeep.blog-city.com
and tell me what you thought of my writings

Jyotsna said...

Renuka,pls mail me your telephone contact! am here till 26th!
Kaveri,diti is fine,doing better!i am waiting for a chance to blog soon..:))

- brydz - said...

this piece is so honest, so touching, so real. i will drop by again to see what else you have written. feel free to check out my blog.

mermaid said...

I'm glad Diti (is that her name?) is better.

eden said...

i can feel the pain,
well put!

Tazeen Mohsin said...

I loved the wat u wrote
"just when I get
a glimpse of the light ahead..
I also see the shadows.."

U've written beautifully....

gulnaz said...

wondering how things are with u

Pincushion said...

YO! JO! Greaaaaat to have you back..So missed you! It was empty in here! So hurry up and get back to doin what you do best..waitttting for ur next post !
*Huggs*

IRIS said...

Pain.....

Jyo, this one is a real Beauty!!!

Pain is NEVER a good enough reason to STOP.....

So conquer, we shall....
Bit by Bit!!!
:-)