Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Life's lessons

Why are all children so special?
and
why are special children all that "more special"?
No defining characteristic that I can pinpoint nor
can i put my finger on the pulse of that "feeling"..
the feeling that gently tugs at me when I see my child,
my special one..

She turned 4 last week...4 whole years since her birth.I cannot say they have been long years but yes they have been "learning years",a messy yet challenging journey of learning for me as a mother and as an indivdual.

I still recollect those myriad emotions when I discovered that she was born with a rare heart disorder....that incessant "why me",to the racking guilt,the tormenting self-pity,sheer helplessness,anger and just about any negative emotion that you could name...I experienced all of them!

And now..
I have learnt to have faith,courage and hope...that beautiful feeling of never giving up on life and what it has to offer.
and she has that special something which lights up her face and makes her eyes sparkle and shine and her smile,that million dollar smile that lights up our life each and every day. Maybe that's what makes her special.
:)

28 comments:

velvetgunther said...

Once again, I'd like to wish Ditto a very Happy Birthday. You're a strong mother and a wonderful woman!

Pincushion said...

You are the most courageous and most wonderful person I know...you are my inspiration!
What a wonderfully inspiring post!
Bravo!
love and hugggggs!

mermaid said...

An angel can be a challenge and a gift. She has so much courage, that she makes us want to try...

Known Stranger said...

Certainly i wont sympathyse with what you are troubling at your emotional level But i would say.. " J" you are bold lady with a rational mind blessed with the natures gift of mothers heart that no man can understand or realise how much he( I ) try. I feel you are one real angel.

I would wish your kid lives with no pain. And you sustaining the emotions with smile is no less wonder than the Holy Nature itself. I believe GOD is not HE . It should be SHE.

Sujith said...

Hey!
Nice post.My sis has been going through her initial stages of pregnancy and a lot of "morning sickness". Would ask her to read this one.
Btw, you are on my rss feed and have been a silent reader all this while.
Hafta confess your poems are beyond my comprehension, the ordinary mortal i am.
anyways, congratulations on having a wonderful baby.

Anonymous said...

Jo - Yes, she is special and you are very special too. Hugs to you both. - Jaya

Sundar said...

beautiful post..all angels are manifests of love, bringing out domains of love we did not know existed in us......enginesw for us to grow..rarest of blessings in disguise...

Emmanuel said...

Have you ever noticed how the faces of all adults change when there is a child around? If a child takes public transport, for instance, even the face of the most disgruntled want-to-be-cool type will open up.

Brood Mode said...

i've always felt "Crisis" and the "strength" to bear it have same source

iamnasra said...

Such love..mother's love to her child is so magnificent ....

Sometime tests of God are so hard on us...He sure does not give something we can not handle

Enemy of the Republic said...

This is a beautiful blog. Children are the secret to the beauty of life. I commend you.

Blue Athena said...

Hi Jyo, having met that bright spark you talk about, I completely agree with you! Her smile does light up a million diyas! :)

*hugs*

Shubhodeep said...

dropping in after a long time. glad to
see that youre putting up great posts as usual.
Cheers!
do drop by my blog sometime.
http://shubhodeep.blogspot.com

Abhishek said...

cool blog.........adding a link to "tears" on my blog...

IcEyeZ said...

Define Heaven:
"A Child's Smile" ;-)

Rohit Talwar said...

very very nice lines. i really like your blog. i love your expression :)

iamnasra said...

this is just to say hello and send my greetings to you

stan laurel said...

AMAZING!

red said...

happy birthday to your kiddo.came here thru hopping and lots of blog hopping and loved this place.take care.

Just A Human said...

Birthday wishes,
Life finds its own way out.

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Rohit Talwar said...

time to update ma'm!

Lorena said...

how sweet :) i can see you are a wonderful mother and you are all blessed.

velvetgunther said...

when are you writing some more?

anthony said...

Another wordsmith eh! Nice blog, very nice indeed. And yes children are special.growing up as the eldest sibling of a generation, I am the big brother to a score of cousins..

K Kavitha Reddy said...

i saw this post the moment i surfaced out of a bad tangle with my mother.how ashamed i feel to lose patience and pain her for minuscule events,ego clashes and opinion differences.

i congratulate you for your strength,love,patience and belief.you are such a humble and strong woman..you just drove out my frustrations by making me realise how well am endowed with..

Enemy of the Republic said...

How about another post?

niddlesriddles said...

a little long belated! bud cudn't stop myself 4 not wishin a little cutie gurlie A very Happy birtday - n A very Happy New Day :D have agreatttttttt year!! :D n hey Momma..ur posties can touch anybodyz heart! Its so simple yet u rite so delicately n beautifully just teh way u r!! :) lotz n lots of love :D n take care :D

Shankari said...

Oi! *special* mama, I know you just came to my blog but please read the Enabled Persons post I'd written on the World Disabled day.